Hi,
Ang tagal pala ng last time ko na nag update sa blog ko. Eto ok na ok ako, sana kayo rin, Ibang iba na ako, nagbago na ako magisip, pati mga pangarap ko, pati yung itsura ko. Ewan! hahaha Medyo gumanda na katawan ko, after 5 months na pag gym ngayun ko lang nakita yung result, grabe dahil siguro dito bumata ako tignan. Medyo dumami yung nakapansin sa akin, kahit mga Boss sa ibang company nagkakagusto, ewan ko, late bloomer nga siguro ako. Halos araw araw may message ako, tinitignan ako sa MRT, PNR at kahit saan, at dahil dyan magpapa-derma pala ako after ng event today! Yung dermabrasion, na super effective daw pangwala ng acne scars, hinde na ako nagkakaroon ng pimples, paisa isa na lang sa isang linggo, minsan wala talaga. Medyo oily tsaka may mga scars pa pero unting session ng dermabrasion talaga maging flawless ako, after ko mag paganda ng katawan, magpapaturok ako glutha, sigur after this year na, wala na kasi ako budget. Ayun pala kaya medyo nhihirapan ako sa budget kasi super expensive ng course ko, pati pagtulog ko, wala! as in wala na akong tulog pang papasok ako school, super dame ko napagaralan, feeling ko malapit na ako sa mga pangarap ko.
Pageant today!!
Yehey, 2nd time ko sumali ng pgeant ulit, this time for my company, as in super prepare ako, mamaya ko kukunin yung gown na rerentahan ko! Pati mga gastos akin, may god, haha pero worth it naman. Excited na ako mamaya!
Good part
Ngayun, naglakas loob ako na hanapin IG nya, nakita ko mga pics nya, 1st time ko after 6 months nakita ang updated pics nya, super saya ko, pero super nerbiyos kasi hinde na mawawala sa aking yung pagselos, pero medyo hinde na sya masakit, OFFICIALLY moved on na ako, siguro its my time para i entertain yung mga nag show ng love sa akin, medyo marame na akong sinakstan for the last 5 months, as in, i dont know, siguro super immature ko pag dating sa love o pgtanggap, nagsosorry talaga ako ng sobra, hinde ko masabe ng maayos sa kanila kung bakit ayoko ng love, ayoko na muna kasi masaktan, sabe ko sa kanila na marame pa dyan na magmamahal sa kanila, tsaka demonyo kayo ako, haha pero alam ko they are better sa ibang tao, ngayun namn nageenjoy ako sa pagiging single, yung nakakapagfocus ako sa career ko, yun naman ang plano ko this year, nagpromise ako na no love for this year, puro career. Ayun nga pala nakita ko mga pics nya, and super happy ako na super happy at naka move on na rin sya, after all ang pangarap ko naman sa kanya a year ago, na makita sya masaya, tsaka he deserves to be happy, everybody deserve to be happy. When you read this email mo ko sa mrpusingful@gmail.com usapa tayo minsan, gusto ko maraming friends, just be happy.
Goodluck, malapit na xmas, excited na ako.
Saturday, September 19, 2015
Monday, July 13, 2015
Start of the beggining
Hola, its been a long time, I haven't updated this blog, i was thinking adding new post last week but I was too busy. Pimples suddenly burst around my chest and cheek, i hate it, instead of me going outside for a date or taking requirements for my study, did i say "study'? wahh I have keeping this as a secret for the last 6 months, I promised to myself that i don't want to spoil this or say it to my friends not until i get an obvious start, which have been pending application for last month.
I was so surprised that all of things falling perfectly to what it should be, I planned it, I have solid plans for my future! I don't want to get more details for what my plans are, but i will make sure that it will fit perfectly to the timeline I created. I am so thankful and positive that no one can ever destroy the foundation even when people tested me, I still refuse to reply negatively and react humanly.
I have done this because I am getting older, next year I will be 22. I don't really want the job I am into, but it supply and support me until I received the success, success is synonymous to me getting to the job i prefer and what my heart desire. Fashion design was an option when I was at college, I thought that this is a job that doesn't need diploma because you can design by your own, create crafts but i was wrong, it is a job that needs one 101% attention and extreme interest "slash" patience.
I was so inspired by Michael Cinco, Furne Amato, Monique Lhuiller, Alexander MacQueen, brand like Gucci, fascinated by Tom Ford, Alexander Wang, Marchesa, Versace x Ricardo and many more. I like freelance designers too, they create life to their ideas, they are truly an artist.
Fashion designing is not earning money, its a job that needs genuine talent and perseverance, a designer needs a canvass and a talent, designers don't need a manager, recruiters nor agency, they only need to express talent uniquely that everybody easily understand, a concept that even a kid can comprehend. When you get to this job there is no remorse, it needs to be moving forward, you can't be in this profession if you think that you will get rich the first time you get your diploma, it takes time and many failures. I expect myself failing at some point and will think of giving up, but Rem you need to remember how excited you were the first time you get your scholarship, you were so excited that you cried to anonymous people, you easily get sensitive when people ask you "what is your plan/dream?" you responded like you were really sure that you can be what you think you can be, you have a solid grasp of your life and decision. If you ever feel giving up, think twice, you were there because that is what your heart desire.
I am extremely thankful for everybody who believes on me, I never had chance to contact them, or say "Hi" or "kamusta" Its been half the year, I am still in the roller-coaster of my emotions, I never regret things, I like the past the most, when I am just loving the best person of my life, preparing for my 4am shift, enjoying my life with my old team, Mariel, Karen, Christia, Maribel, John my TL, my bestriend Jane, Rhum, everybody, providing my family, it was a perfect me, leaving office and going somewhere, its either a KTV or a date, endless date, promises, I hate myself being so selfish, I was so mad, obsessed but don't blame me, I tried to control of what i felt but it was too strong and real that until now I still feel it, it was so fresh. But after all of this, I switched, instead of me being bitter, mad for what happpened, i was too grateful, there are no permanent things in world except memories, you can't change it or replace.
I am so positive now, happy and smiling. I don't have any hate or any form inside my heart, i just want everybody feels safe every-time they talked to me, I am still blunt and do a lot of humors, I have promised to myself that i will never ever love again not until I am so stable financially, emotionally and spiritually or just either send him back to me, hahaha just joking, I know he has somebody he likes and I am totally fine with that, not like before that when I know someone is around him I am a raging dog, barking and willing to bite then kill. But experience indeed change to a better person!
Everybody deserves happy life, desirable environment and friendly workplace.
I am in the middle of my paid vacation for 7 days, I am putting medications to my face, its a result of 2 weeks straight chicken diet! I hate that i break out bloodly and badly. Hmmm, but glad it stopped.
I thanked the creator and myself for being there all the time, my Mom who is very patient and always find time to argue with me recently, haha. My siblings who are very supportive, very supportive that they want me to find a house so I can be independent because they are my "yaya" and "sila ang pinapagalitan pag madumi ang bahay kahit na ako nagkalat, mama's boy kaya ako, hahaha" but they don't put to consideration that I pay their tuition, electric, telephone and internet bill. I am so financially responsible with myself and my family, but after this I will make sure i will succeed. My siblings just need 2 years and they all get out and be independent too! They promise 'sapilitan' to helped me when I decided to pursue architecture, or multimedia arts.
I miss all of my friends, ex co-office, and my "batoto" which used to be and always be, hahaha this one is for you all, you'll see this acne face gone and spent rest of life in parisian life. Positive mind attracts positive result.
Vivir la dulce vida.
xoxo
I was so surprised that all of things falling perfectly to what it should be, I planned it, I have solid plans for my future! I don't want to get more details for what my plans are, but i will make sure that it will fit perfectly to the timeline I created. I am so thankful and positive that no one can ever destroy the foundation even when people tested me, I still refuse to reply negatively and react humanly.
I have done this because I am getting older, next year I will be 22. I don't really want the job I am into, but it supply and support me until I received the success, success is synonymous to me getting to the job i prefer and what my heart desire. Fashion design was an option when I was at college, I thought that this is a job that doesn't need diploma because you can design by your own, create crafts but i was wrong, it is a job that needs one 101% attention and extreme interest "slash" patience.
I was so inspired by Michael Cinco, Furne Amato, Monique Lhuiller, Alexander MacQueen, brand like Gucci, fascinated by Tom Ford, Alexander Wang, Marchesa, Versace x Ricardo and many more. I like freelance designers too, they create life to their ideas, they are truly an artist.
Fashion designing is not earning money, its a job that needs genuine talent and perseverance, a designer needs a canvass and a talent, designers don't need a manager, recruiters nor agency, they only need to express talent uniquely that everybody easily understand, a concept that even a kid can comprehend. When you get to this job there is no remorse, it needs to be moving forward, you can't be in this profession if you think that you will get rich the first time you get your diploma, it takes time and many failures. I expect myself failing at some point and will think of giving up, but Rem you need to remember how excited you were the first time you get your scholarship, you were so excited that you cried to anonymous people, you easily get sensitive when people ask you "what is your plan/dream?" you responded like you were really sure that you can be what you think you can be, you have a solid grasp of your life and decision. If you ever feel giving up, think twice, you were there because that is what your heart desire.
I am extremely thankful for everybody who believes on me, I never had chance to contact them, or say "Hi" or "kamusta" Its been half the year, I am still in the roller-coaster of my emotions, I never regret things, I like the past the most, when I am just loving the best person of my life, preparing for my 4am shift, enjoying my life with my old team, Mariel, Karen, Christia, Maribel, John my TL, my bestriend Jane, Rhum, everybody, providing my family, it was a perfect me, leaving office and going somewhere, its either a KTV or a date, endless date, promises, I hate myself being so selfish, I was so mad, obsessed but don't blame me, I tried to control of what i felt but it was too strong and real that until now I still feel it, it was so fresh. But after all of this, I switched, instead of me being bitter, mad for what happpened, i was too grateful, there are no permanent things in world except memories, you can't change it or replace.
I am so positive now, happy and smiling. I don't have any hate or any form inside my heart, i just want everybody feels safe every-time they talked to me, I am still blunt and do a lot of humors, I have promised to myself that i will never ever love again not until I am so stable financially, emotionally and spiritually or just either send him back to me, hahaha just joking, I know he has somebody he likes and I am totally fine with that, not like before that when I know someone is around him I am a raging dog, barking and willing to bite then kill. But experience indeed change to a better person!
Everybody deserves happy life, desirable environment and friendly workplace.
I am in the middle of my paid vacation for 7 days, I am putting medications to my face, its a result of 2 weeks straight chicken diet! I hate that i break out bloodly and badly. Hmmm, but glad it stopped.
I thanked the creator and myself for being there all the time, my Mom who is very patient and always find time to argue with me recently, haha. My siblings who are very supportive, very supportive that they want me to find a house so I can be independent because they are my "yaya" and "sila ang pinapagalitan pag madumi ang bahay kahit na ako nagkalat, mama's boy kaya ako, hahaha" but they don't put to consideration that I pay their tuition, electric, telephone and internet bill. I am so financially responsible with myself and my family, but after this I will make sure i will succeed. My siblings just need 2 years and they all get out and be independent too! They promise 'sapilitan' to helped me when I decided to pursue architecture, or multimedia arts.
I miss all of my friends, ex co-office, and my "batoto" which used to be and always be, hahaha this one is for you all, you'll see this acne face gone and spent rest of life in parisian life. Positive mind attracts positive result.
Vivir la dulce vida.
xoxo
Thursday, June 4, 2015
Birthday
Happy birthday to the person I am so attached with, the connections are still intact. I just want to say Feliz Cumpleanos (wala kasing enye) hehe. Matanda na tayo, nagpapasalamat na nakasama kita sa pinakaimportanteng parte ng buhay mo at ako. Lahat ng kanta na nakaattach sayo eh buburahin ko na simula bukas, I back up ko lahat ng photos naten tapos magpapalit na ako phone, sa totoo lang hinde pa ako nakakamove on, palagi bumabalik lahat, naiiyak ako, nalulungkot ako, tatangalin ko na siguro lahat. Naapketuhan ako, ikaw lang palagi ko naiisip, naiinis ako sa sarili ko, Eto yung pinakakinakatakutan ko na kalimutan ka, hinde mo alam kung gaano kahirap.
Nakaleave ako ng matagal, pagbalik ko panibagong buhay na ako, ipursue ko na yung dreams ko, ikaw yung inspirasyon ko. Basta whatever happens it happens for a reason.
Nakaleave ako ng matagal, pagbalik ko panibagong buhay na ako, ipursue ko na yung dreams ko, ikaw yung inspirasyon ko. Basta whatever happens it happens for a reason.
Monday, May 11, 2015
Smile always
Current emotion :
Hello, happy but again it has exception, every time i smell his perfume and listen to our song it make me sad that I cant even think straight or just cry. I am more establish now, busier and has a lot of priorities.
Plans :
I planned to travel outside Philippines sooner, i don't have any dates and any specific place, but hopefully i have time and money of course to suffice needs. Good news are around, i don't want to spoil yet, i don't really want to tell. Its always my dream and my inspiracion lol.
Body of the blog :
I am more positive than 3 months ago, i misses him so much, his birthday will be next month, I planned to send him gifts and cake, we celebrated his birthday last year, we cooked pasta and etc. I want to talked and travel with him again, but I know he have someone that makes him happy, i am open with these topics than a year ago, i want him to be more happy and enjoy life. I am always here fulfilling dreams, love should follow too.
I want to travel in Baguio again or anywhere north, but I still have attachment with the roads, familiar places and ambiance, I really doubt that I can make myself happy and enjoy the stay, it will really make me feel so sad then cry because of extreme loneliness and unexplained nostalgia.
I am happy that i received good news about him, I am always proud! He is the best person I met, the most "madiskarte" and "makulit/maloko pero cute"! Hehehe. My birthday will come shortly, I hope he can be with me, or just send me a message on my special day. I really want to travel with him " please lord" hehe but offcourse he will be busy and me too! Just for now hinde muna but after our success I know we will meet and continue
enough said, goodluck to me next month, life changing, pero hopefully everything will fall perfectly fine.
Gracias
xoxo
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Insert smiley here
Hello, its been a long time! How are you? I hope you are fine and happy. I am still not fine, its been 2 months when he left and burn bridge, I am honest, I cry, i still cry, I am alone, I am super alone, I walk, eat then go out by myself. I like the happiness I get when I travel alone. I feel extreme pain, It hurts me whenever I see his pictures, we are happy, we laugh, we talk, we tease, we travel we are bestfriends. He deserves more happiness. I always want to see him happy and contented. I decided to stop not because I am tired its because I want him to get peace, when he is happy I am happy, when he is sad I am sad, his feelings are connected to me.
Recently I always go near his house at least once a week, I just want to remember the good memories, I don't know why I like to hurt myself, I just want to wake one time and forget, or just kill myself when pain is not tolerable because its like it happened very recently, like it was yesterday, the emotion is fresh. I avoid listening to music that make me remember him, I avoid the perfume he uses, I avoid the familiar places and foods, I never ride buses route to North Manila because he hit my mind and stick there for another month hehe. He cares for me, he loves me, he go with me and a lot of good stuff,
I really hope he is extremely fine, I am not OK but its OK. I extremely extremely extremely miss that Batoto. :-)
Recently I always go near his house at least once a week, I just want to remember the good memories, I don't know why I like to hurt myself, I just want to wake one time and forget, or just kill myself when pain is not tolerable because its like it happened very recently, like it was yesterday, the emotion is fresh. I avoid listening to music that make me remember him, I avoid the perfume he uses, I avoid the familiar places and foods, I never ride buses route to North Manila because he hit my mind and stick there for another month hehe. He cares for me, he loves me, he go with me and a lot of good stuff,
I really hope he is extremely fine, I am not OK but its OK. I extremely extremely extremely miss that Batoto. :-)
Sunday, March 15, 2015
Missing you
Everytime I think of you, I always catch my breath
And I'm still standing here, and you're miles away
And I'm wonderin' why you left
And there's a storm that's raging through my frozen heart tonight.
I hear your name in certain circles, and it always makes me smile
I spend my time thinkin' about you, and it's almost driving me wild
And there's a heart that's breaking down this night
Missing you since you have gone.
And there's a message that I'm sending out, like a telegraph to your soul
And if I can't bridge this distance, stop this heartbreak overload
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
Short term memory sickness
Yey, i have a lot of free time to blog. I am glad that i have my laptop and mi-fi with me! Never felt so good, haha. Anyways I am getting better emotionally [I learned not to remember things because when I do it make me feel so sad, I am not covering my past I just want for now not to have flashbacks, hey FYI they are great memories, but i decided to blur them temporarily, just for now, *pinkypromise*]
Oh my, [How deep is your love] plays, *sigh* oh my gosh, I cant think properly, fudge, you know this song means to me, because "he" came to my life summer last year. I play this song every time we travel places, sung this to videoke hub with him, yes, yes, yes, my gosh, I just said that I dont want flashbacks, let me stop the song.. .. .. Ughhhh [play an Amy Winehouse songs instead], ohh that is tough, my phone lags much, but glad I changed the song, going back I want to show something that i written last quarter of the 2014, I was shocked that I did that, and still have no idea for who it was and what happened that day.
Haha, too silly, but whatever the reasons are, I am totally done with it. Honest with the reader, I have that short term memory sickness in the less priority things, it happens naturally in my head, my mind erase unimportant details or scene from past, but... this should be an important scene in my life but again don't have idea when it was, what are the reasons, who are involve and such stuff, wah I am getting old and age quick, noooooo. That tweet is so emotional my memory should contain the details.
Oh my, [How deep is your love] plays, *sigh* oh my gosh, I cant think properly, fudge, you know this song means to me, because "he" came to my life summer last year. I play this song every time we travel places, sung this to videoke hub with him, yes, yes, yes, my gosh, I just said that I dont want flashbacks, let me stop the song.. .. .. Ughhhh [play an Amy Winehouse songs instead], ohh that is tough, my phone lags much, but glad I changed the song, going back I want to show something that i written last quarter of the 2014, I was shocked that I did that, and still have no idea for who it was and what happened that day.
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| Draft from twitter |
Haha, too silly, but whatever the reasons are, I am totally done with it. Honest with the reader, I have that short term memory sickness in the less priority things, it happens naturally in my head, my mind erase unimportant details or scene from past, but... this should be an important scene in my life but again don't have idea when it was, what are the reasons, who are involve and such stuff, wah I am getting old and age quick, noooooo. That tweet is so emotional my memory should contain the details.
I am taking supplements now for better memory, if I could just put 64gb of SD card on my head *wishful thinking*. I remember this sickness started after the road accident last 3 years ago it was summer, I only have 50% chance of surviving, but then God gave me opportunity to start my second life, there are a lot of blood came out from my head, my mouth, i was terribly deformed and can't walk after 2 days. But hey it never stopped me to do things! I never tell this to anybody at all except to Hanz, I am horribly scared they will tease me, but no secret will stay secret forever.
I will update too after my medication after 6 months, hopefully I will get obvious result. :)
VIVIR LA DULCE VIDA
HIV Positive
Hey, its been a long time since i have posted something in my blog. I was so busy that I missed brushing my teeth and washing my face before I sleep, i have a new work this coming week, new environment and its 1 hour away from my place, but its alright since i just want to move on and don't want to remember things that will make me sad. I just came from Mandaluyong Capitol to get my NBI clearance and tomorrow will meet a physician for my medical requirements then I'm done so i can rest, watch movie and spend remaining free days at Angono, Rizal. Summer is coming quick, but don't have plans to go in beach since I'm not done bleaching my skin [still no visible result, lol] haha. Anyways early today, I have read a lot of blogs about being HIV Positive like iamhpositive.tumblr.com it was super informative blog for people who undergo medical treatment with their situation, it also a self awareness blog that even though you look healthy you should undergo with free testing around the Philippines, the blog will provide you information on where you can test yourself for free. I am not HIV positive or any of stuff, I am just a curious reader, wanting to know how people with this condition overcome the illness, and with pride, i want to say that they are totally the same person as they were, they are people conscious about their health and well being, they are happy person, and they are like me, they live like other people does daily. I think people need to erase the stigma that HIV has, it is not transferable unless you have sexual contact with them, or share same needles and etc. They are totally safe, you can talk with them, have handshake and and etc. I am just overwhelmed how my friends talk about this one person who is HIV positive "Wag ka lalapit dun baka mahawa ka." and I am like "What the hell you are talking about, i think dear you need to read biology for you to understand simple fact about HIV." and she shut her mouth then leave. I am a person that will stand for what i believe is right till the end, Sagittarius kaya ako! lol
I love reading each of the blog, I let my friends aware about the current numbers of people who has HIV that i want them to protect themselves before "sex". I don't know if there are available cures for the condition but i am extremely hopeful that it will be available not until the end of the decade *crossedfingers* for now education is the best protection. I will keep updating my blog about this topic and hopefully I can talk to people who are "pozzies" or positive, and make friend, :) But again whatever happens it happens for a better reason.
VIVIR LA DULCE VIDA
Monday, March 2, 2015
How are you?
Today I am fine, watch some Lady Gaga videos, play music and talk to myself about everything, i love myself now. I haven't talk to anybody for the last 2 weeks, I have not contacted my colleagues because I know they are upset about what happened, but although it hurts, or they didn't like what happened they still understand and respect the space for now. I did few fun stuffs on my computer, I think its a way of me not to get emotional, I went to Baguio City again with Google Maps, its cool because they have 3D places that I can navigate and essentially be there, and remember moments. No one knows how much I want to go back to that place and be with him, just for a day if possible.
My mind ask me again "How are you?" I am fine, i am happy and contented, I keep pretending that i am strong when i am really not. I just want to make everything right before the year ends. I am positive that everything will be fine. I am so depressed, I am smiling and laughing but don't let that fool you, look in to my eyes, I am breaking. But with the good memories, it helps me with the situation, the pictures don't lie, they smile on me, whenever i play his videos it helps me. He is cool, we don't care anybody, we are fun, we care for each one. We have pinky promises, that's funny, hehe. we like "asaran" or teasing, we share same interests, I put make ups on his face, free session during free hour haha, yea a lot of good stuff, it motivates me to be alright, I know ill see him soon, ill kill him, ill kill him with a tight, super duper tight hug, I know "nagtatampo" lang yun.
"How are you?" YES!! I am blessed and have good memories with him, I am extremely depressed to the moment I just want to end my life, but whenever the memory hits my mind, it motivates me to continue and be a better person, not bitter person. Haha, blogging is huge help!
My mind ask me again "How are you?" I am fine, i am happy and contented, I keep pretending that i am strong when i am really not. I just want to make everything right before the year ends. I am positive that everything will be fine. I am so depressed, I am smiling and laughing but don't let that fool you, look in to my eyes, I am breaking. But with the good memories, it helps me with the situation, the pictures don't lie, they smile on me, whenever i play his videos it helps me. He is cool, we don't care anybody, we are fun, we care for each one. We have pinky promises, that's funny, hehe. we like "asaran" or teasing, we share same interests, I put make ups on his face, free session during free hour haha, yea a lot of good stuff, it motivates me to be alright, I know ill see him soon, ill kill him, ill kill him with a tight, super duper tight hug, I know "nagtatampo" lang yun.
"How are you?" YES!! I am blessed and have good memories with him, I am extremely depressed to the moment I just want to end my life, but whenever the memory hits my mind, it motivates me to continue and be a better person, not bitter person. Haha, blogging is huge help!
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| Session road, ang init sobra. haha via Google maps® "Imagination vacation" |
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| Burnham park, naalala ko ito yung unang place na pinuntahan namen eh, Via Google Maps® |
"Stay in love."
Depressed
Hi, today its a super hard, super depressed day for me, I felt like I want to just kill myself and just say goodbye without letting them know I'm gone. I just want them to know I'm fine and alright. Anyways I hate my mom whenever she touches my things and decisions, she want to make decision for me which I respect but I'm old enough to make my own decision, being said I'm in the middle of my busy day when my mom calls me and asking "anung oras na? Bakit hinde ka pa umuuwe?" when I knew I let her know about what that day is for, that I don't need distractions and phone calls, but suddenly someone ask me, this girl around her 25 to 30ish, a manager, "what motivates you?" I stopped and think, but my heart was so fragile, I remember this man who motivates me then suddenly left me, my truly love and my bestfriend, my person that will travel with me wherever, eat same food and a lot of good stuff, he really is my motivation, but from the moment I start talking my mom reaches my tounge, I said to her "My mom, I love my mom, my mom taught me how to be independent, annoy me when I know she just want to make sure I'm fine, if I'm alright, my mom that motivates me when I'm down but I'm truly careless not to ask if shes ok when she is sicked or tired, I never ask her if she already done with dinner, if she is statisfied with the taste, if she's full or not, my mom cares more than anybody does, she and family is my motivation and I won't give up until they are still around, I'll continue to serve them joy and life contentment when I know being together is already enough." then awkward silence kill the room, the woman replied "I like your honesty" then she smiled like she never heard that kind of answer from anybody, she likes me being straight forward, I told her about my dream, I almost cry, I told her that I'll save my money, study and I'll make sure that I'll be somebody everyone would be proud, with my craft, designs and passion towards art. But then after the conversation I didn't get oppurtunity to tell her about this one person that really taught me how to become strong, taught me that I should wait, not to be selfish and not to rush things, he is always in my mind, whenever I go to bed I'll pray to God to make sure that he is fine, he eaten his foods and have good friends, I wish to God that before I left, I'll see him, I'll hug him, I truly love him, he guides me, laugh with me, travel.with me, he is part of my life, he is part of my importants, my starred person, I never knew I will love a person so deeply, I am not the kind of person that will deeply attach, I'm independent but when he crossed my heart, I knew I'm wrong, that I needed someone, that I needed him in my life.
This day given me chance to figure who are my priorities, people that affects me and motivates me. Its my mom, my family, my dreams, my self and this special person who touched my heart.
"Everything happens for a better reason."
This day given me chance to figure who are my priorities, people that affects me and motivates me. Its my mom, my family, my dreams, my self and this special person who touched my heart.
"Everything happens for a better reason."
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